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Old Dec 27, 2022, 02:30 PM
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So I think I have BPD, (borderline) I have had literally every symptom especially in my late teenage years. I'm not so much extremely reckless and impulsive anymore though. I stopped self harm (cutting), stopped impulsive sex, stopped purging, stopped experimenting recklessly with substances, haven't done any of that in many years. but I still have a lot of the other stuff, the more internal stuff. I used to be suicidal a lot and end up in the hospital a lot but I haven't been in the hospital since 2017. So in a lot of ways things have improved greatly over the years, however bringing up the traumas from my past in therapy finally has brought up a lot of negative emotions out the past two weeks. I haven't been doing anything reckless or impulsive anymore, even if sometimes the urges are there, I've learned to control my behavior over the years with therapy and doing a lot mindfulness/meditation/dbt/cbt self help stuff. But these past two weeks have been a literal ****ing tornado in my head and my emotions are all over

I asked my doctor about this awhile back and she said she didn't think so, however I guess the point is I have improved a lot over the years and the meds I'm on do help me. So I have no clue
I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, and panic disorder and those have been my diagnosis for the past 10 years. I do get the euphoric highs and not sleeping and tons of energy periods too and paranoid delusions so maybe it's a combination of things. I have no clue. Anyway, it's been a rough couple of weeks.

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Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type
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