my advice... is to very, very kind to yourself....

and this is so hard to do.. with kids needing you and hubby there too - normallcy (sp).. is hard to achieve... I think because of the "high level of feeling within therapy and one's self as therapy is started"...

starting therapy can be very draining on one's physical self...

I guess...though this may not "make sense".... expecting hubby or kids to understand... I believe will cause a "let down" feeling... because I think that it is really rare... with this kind of work...
I am not saying that they would not want to understand.... but they have not experienced what you have in your childhood.. so the depth of understanding of the impact might not be there..

I guess I offer this up.... because I have experienced... this in my own life.. and want to "save" you from hurt feelings....

Having a nuturing Mom.. is something.. that I want so badly too... I am in the process of.. "being that" for me....the inside me... I make sure I sleep now when I need the rest... and I have learned to say "no" to other people... self protecting... I don't know if you can do this... for me I am just learning...

((((hugs))))