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Blue_Bird I'm so glad your appointment went well. It can be so emotional being so vulnerable with someone. I think it's a very natural reaction to cry. Crying is very cathartic.I want you to know I am very proud of you for doing that. You are very lucky to have someone who understand and knows you so well. I think she gave you two very special gifts today: 1) A better understanding of where you have come from, and help you see you're not alone. Many people suffer with BPD. and the better gift of the two 2) That you've grown so much and more stable that she's hesitant to even put it on paper. It shows immensely that your rapport with your mental health team is impeccable.
If I were you , the two take aways I would have from this is -- "I can understand myself a little better, and know I'm not alone in this." and "I've come a long way and while I may have a ways to go, I should be proud of the accomplishments of being where I am."
Your psychiatrist is very compassionate. I know this was very hard on you and I hope you find peace in this rough period. Again, I think only positive can come from this -- and a person who knows you well and for many years told you what you already knew -- you've come such a long way!
You're in my thoughts.
Brentus