On my abuse forums on Facebook I constantly see women blaming themselves for the abuse they experience, & still thinking and wishing they could "fix" their abusive narcissist partner. I am so grateful that I am not in that place mentally!!!! SO GRATEFUL. I know it's not my fault, my responsibility or my job to fix him or to try to change him. He is who he is, and there's no changing that.

I rarely watch any Youtube videos about abuse now. I feel I am healed and well on my way to full recovery.

I got on a dating site for people over 50, just to see what's out there. I wrote in my profile that I am not looking for anything serious. I still don't feel ready to meet someone for real, but I do feel like exploring right now.