To preface I’m not necessarily depressed rn but just wanted to get this off my chest

Something happened today which made me realize that I barely function as a human. When I eat I eat very little but enough to function. When I cook I cook the most basic thing and been eating the same thing for the past 3 months but it’s fine for me to function. When I sleep, I sleep a lot more than what is normal. When I work I get a job that’s meaningless but enough for me to say I’m not unemployed. When I get paid I get enough just for me to get by. When I work the tasks I do are not phenomenal but just “fine”.

I suck at doing humanely duties. The things that are set out for you in society/by the human species I just can’t do. I just scrape by. I do it just enough to function. Literally with everything.

And then I see people that are actually good at doing “humanely things” and I’m just here like I can’t. I can’t do those things. I feel like a pathetic of a human being. Like I can’t even do simple things that others are doing around me. And I’m not even capable of doing better. I acknowledge I’m not good at doing things but damn I can’t even function like a human being. I’m a sad excuse. I’m barely human.