Halliebeth, I hope you're able to talk to your NP about how you feel. I used to feel that very often, feeling that my doctor was out to get me or put me on meds that poisoned me or made me unstable, etc things of that nature, it's very scary to feel that way. I did tell my doctor that and they were able to help get me stable with med changes, without putting me IP. I hope that's what yours can do with you since you said you're not in danger, but if you are it's best to be honest and get help