I met up with my former CEO after work yesterday. I wanted to maintain a positive relationship with him for future reference purposes. We had drinks and appetizers and caught up on our lives.

Sadly, he told me and it's not the first time he's said this - that I lack confidence. After I told him that my husband had cheated on me and that I took him back after that, he reiterated that I lack confidence. He said that he thinks I'm wonderful - that I am smart, funny, fun and beautiful - those were his adjectives.

And my parents have also told me I lack confidence, which is just heart wrenching for me to hear as a reflection back on how others perceive me. In fact, it brings me to tears.

So I told him, well, I do have confidence in some ways and not in other ways - it's a mixed bag. He said that he sometimes can lack confidence himself, so I was wondering if he's actually projecting.

I really think that I carry myself in a way that exudes confidence and that I speak in a way that says I am confident. But I don't perceive myself the way others do, so i really don't know how I come across to other people. But it made me very sad to hear this from him about myself.

So I am going to work on my confidence level. I guess. I guess it needs work.