Finally happy Christmas and new years day is doneish. Tired of the pressure to be happy the "most wonderful time of the year" when I've just been miserable.

F goes back to work from tomorrow, there's around 4 more hours of today left . I know it's unreasonable but I'm feeling so annoyed at him for taking a break in the first place.

He did offer a session on the 18th which I didn't take up. So it's 3 weeks that I haven't seen him.