I am not a robot or a machine with no feelings and no emotions. I don't understand how it cannot effect me in any way when he's being manipulative, passive aggressive or is gaslighting me. Of course I'm going to get angry and react inside. I am an emotional, feeling type of person. Indifference in that way seems impossible & unrealistic - at least for me. I don't think it has anything to do with my healing. It's that he triggers me, and I need to steer clear of communications with him. I am better off when we're not communicating.