Wow. I am SO triggered.
I will go because that is what I do.

I know tomorrow the dissociation will kick in. I may or may not remember the session afterwards. If I dissociate I will look and act so normal. He doesn't stand a chance if I check out... even awesome T couldn't catch it if I didn't leave in front of him.
I want to tell him I am scared but it isn't OK to text.
Unless my BP drops my dog won't alert. Even if she does alert new T doesn't get it. My dog attempted to alert during the somatic session and he thought she had to pee.

So very scared