What a heartbreaking set of events!

I am so very, very sorry you are in the situation you describe. I would devastated if I was in your shoes.

You are bearing an incredibly heavy burden. I wish I knew what to say to help.

I hope you will be able to bounce back from all the troubles. Are you in the care of a physician for your mental health and/or a therapist?

Although none of us here are doctors or mental health professionals, I hope you will feel free to lean on us for moral support so you will not be alone with your distress and so you will not sink deeper into dark stuff.

So sorry I do not know how to help. I sincerely hope others here with more knowledge, experience and insight will see your post and respond in a kindly and helpful way. My heart goes out to you!