This seems so hard. Sorry you are going through all of this but kudos for sticking with it.

Just want to comment briefly on new T not wanting to talk to awesome T. My therapist is mentioned not really putting a lot of stock in information from prior or other therapists. Her reason is she wants to form her own assessments and learn information directly from the client. Since dynamics can be different with different therapists different information as well as interpretations are likely to be there. She feels getting info from other T'S could have a negative impact on how she works with the client.

She did speak to my long term therapist but more to coordinate a plan as I would see them both. She kept in mind things she learned but still was curiois and did not assume information about me and my history.