I realized today I have no idea how to treat myself. I’m working on losing weight and I’ve always treated myself with food and I’m just stumped on what else to do. Like the concept of doing something *I* want to do exclusively for me is so foreign to me. I don’t do anything I want to do for fear it will make RS upset. I feel that I don’t deserve anything for myself. These are old trauma responses I must undo.

I took a walk today on my own which was very nice, it was cold but I have new fleece lined leggings that are very warm. Plus it was sunny and walking briskly warmed me up as well.

Im generally in a bad mood just because of hormones, so I hope to feel better tomorrow.