I worked out too much yesterday. I woke up at 12:40 in a lot of side pain. I stayed up then decided I could workout just my arms. So I did 75 weight lifts. Now I am in so much pain and very nauseated. I do have sort of a deliema. I got reaprovved for disabilty and social security very easily. The letter came today. My mom sent them a list of my meds and the doctors visits I have gone to in the last 2 years. And just like that I was recertified. The letter said they didn't need anymore info. They didn't need to contact any of my doctors. I'm good for however long. Now my mom and therapist are sort of pushing me not to work. I have outstanding insurance that pays for basically anything and I can see amazing doctors and get great care. I think they are worried even a part time job will dismantle my disabilty status. Plus my therapist thinks my eating disorder may get even worse if I'm working. But we are focusing on food this week, eating every 4 hours. Then next week calling the job I applied to and seeing whats up with that. Then we will go from there.

Basically I'm just bored and I feel useless and like I'm wasting space. My therapist suggested I find a hobby. But I think my mom is mainly worried about this insurance.