Lauren, I'm glad the session came and went and you survived. Some good, some not so good--just like life. That is great you were able to calmly go through the scheduling issue with him. Great job!

I would take him at his word about the schedule--he just doesn't deal with his own schedule, that is why he has an assistant. Maybe because of what you told him, he will talk to his assistant and let him know how he can do a better job. That will benefit all the clients, not just you, so potentially you have done a very good thing! My T does his own scheduling and has double booked me 3 different times. So not having an assistant is not necessarily the answer to scheduling woes.

It sounds like he was quite conciliatory and I like how he told you he would he would not hurt you on purpose. That must have felt good to hear, as I remember you had wondered if he canceled on you in the way he did on purpose to hurt you or teach you a lesson. I am glad you can put that worry to rest.

The letter sounds cool! Even if you never need to open it, it would be very reassuring to have it in your possession.

Some of the other comments are a mixed bag. He told you he likes you, doesn't want to hurt you, and thinks you work hard, but yet you are insufferable.

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so how will this ever be a safe environment for me?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Maybe you can focus on what happens inside the therapy room instead of on external stuff like scheduling. Once you are in the room with T, do you feel safe? If not, what can he do to help? It sounds like the scheduling issue is simply beyond your control so focusing on that is beating your head against the wall. Could you focus instead on what happens between you and him when you are together?

It sounds like you really want to tell him that he can be insufferable at times. That word has struck a chord. Go ahead, do it!

It sounds like you two made a good start at mending a rupture, but it is not quite all repaired yet. Great start, though. Hang in there with him. I think he really cares.