I think you're doing fine and just overly beating yourself up over a perceived (by you) lack of skill or accomplishment. I do this too. Your posts about your soon-to-be ex-husband were very empathetic toward his problems and issues. Now that he's not sucking your energy for self-compassion, turn that energy toward yourself and be kinder to yourself. Things are hard when you're growing - you're learning new skills, learning to enjoy your alone time. Just let things be and see where it goes. Start looking at this part of your life like an adventure and grow into it.