You have gone through much, Rose! The Covid-thing made things worse for a lot of us (at the top of everything else). And of course being a pensioner isn't the best when living alone. None expects one to be at job and to make schedule is difficult if it has no other purpose then to keep one busy.

I think one has to find a purpose to live for to make life meaningful. I had a lot of interests while I was younger that gave me the drive I needed to live a meaning full life. Now my energy is not that much available. I still work part time and I decide how many parts a week.

It may seem strange, but as the years have passed, I have found a greater meaning in my Christian belief. It is something about that since God has given me this life, I owe him to take good care of it. I mean I am not like those who sit in a chair and beg for a magical help. I have it the opposite way. I have to do something to get better in gratefulness to the one who created me. ( I don't push my faith on others. I believe people have to choose their religion or have to choose to have no religion at all).

I have read some psychology books and books about general good health, everything from acupuncture to whatever. When I was a student, Freud was very popular among studens of all kinds. I placed myself at the same wave as well. I had my dreams analyzed at the office of a therapist and so on. (I was almost depression-free for years after my student years). As time has passed, I have found more and more interests in CBT and closed the "Freud-box". CBT is concrete, gives one something to work with. It can be done without a therapist as long as one have basic knowledge about how to use the tools. With that said, I love to see if I can find a good web-page that sums up "things" about depression, like the one I gave above about women and depression. I feel such pages are supporting and inspirering.

I am so glad you have become better, Rose. Please remember that to create a schedule is difficult. I know that because in the middle of my life I met the one sorrow after the other and had to take a break from work as well. The best is to create a habit of jumping out of bed with the morning alarm, have fixed mealtimes and fill in all other activity in the space between. That can be everything from visiting library to go for a bike ride. The point, as I have experienced it, is that it has to give some sort of meaning to one's life.

I hope you don't find me interfering in your life. I like to share when I have something to share, but since we don't see each other here, it is not easy to understand if one is misinterpreted by the other part.

All I can say is "Good Luck with you try to make schedules that works for you".

For the time being I am frustrated because it seems that the Christmas celebration and the spare time between Christmas and New Year has robbed me for too much energy to go back to a normal schedule. But it will be better if I work for it in a slow motion.

See you at "The daily check in" thread.