My haldol-less experiment has ended. I’m spiraling quickly so I have to catch it now. I’m moderately depressed with a lot of irritation and intrusive si/sh thought. The thoughts are not my own and I don’t want them to become my own. My chest is very tight these days from anxiety.

So I started 1mg haldol again yesterday. Today I made a list of five coping skills I will use to handle this effectively. I usually use ice to deal with sh urges so I’m going to bundle up after work and go for a walk. Let the cold air hit my face. Then take a hot shower at some point today.

I have another chapter left in my book, so I’ll finish that one. And I do have another book. I dunno if I’ll start that one though. I have kindle unlimited but I can’t find my charging cord to my actual kindle. Maybe I’ll stop at the second hand book store.

I can handle this.