Thanks a lot for this. It made me cry, but not necessarily in a bad sense. It was more that I was touched by what you wrote than sad.

I have given things some thought. It is not that a label really changes anything. My uncertainty and anxiety have been around for a while, it's just that I now understand where they come from. And yes, since I've suffered from these, I've always had the feeling that they would curb my abilities to find a partner. Just as my ICD does (it is an implant, I might have chosen the wrong wordt). Your words did offer me some consolation.

And yes, it's machine learning as in AI. I do have a background in software development and more recently a masters degree in languages too.