I have never once called in sick in January (for myself, I did when H was in the hospital with sepsis in 2018 but that was because for a couple days he was dangerously sick) but I am on the verge of doing it today. I don't want to do any of this anymore. I think I need a complete life overhaul, that 'turning my whole life upside down' is actually starting to look like a viable option. See, this is why I need to be in therapy again.