Thanks so much for the welcome, already seeing the benefits with the open discussion, so much, much appreciated!

Thank you for your opinion and reply, I'd like to hear all sides, there's no right or wrong answer, or anyone too young/old/inexperienced.

I definitely care for this woman, and love my future child... the problem is that I don't think that I'm ready for this lifestyle yet, in our own relationship I feel like there's something missing... I'm far from perfect, but she hurt me in the first few years, until she managed to change for the better and got treated for her thyroid gland... I don't think I fully recovered from it, and not sure I will.

My initial reaction to pregnancy was "Okay, now I HAVE TO get married"... after exploring it, I realised that I can't just pop the question to someone I can't even say "I love you" in a meaningful way... which made me explore my feelings deeper, hence, why I'm here today. At the moment, there's a lot of external pressure for marriage, but internally... I'm hesitant.

I agree with your opinion on Asia, it's definitely a short-term solution, but not a long-term remedy. I feel like it would enable me to see a lifestyle I always dreamed about, to see if it's worth sacrificing what I have (my relationship). I always lived my life with a code of honour... I feel like I'll be breaching it with this decision, which makes it extra difficult as I'm the type who always tries to help my friends, people in need, and "do the right thing"... often sacrificing my own interests/emotions in the process.