My anxiety had switched off or turned itself down when my depression picked up. I would much rather have just the depression than any amount of anxiety.

This evening I've been looking at some YT videos about depression and how to deal with it and one I came across mentioned some things you might do to sabotage yourself in getting better and then I realized that because I don't really believe things will get better (not because they can't, but because I don't believe in myself to do whats necessary), I just don't know why I bother. So I do sabotage myself. The future doesn't look very good, even if I could do something about it. So, my anxiety is ticking up, right before bed. That's the best time for that. Trying to sleep when your brain is running full out. Fun.

I must have messy handwriting to tick both the depression and anxiety boxes. Who do I talk to about a do over?