((((((((((((((((Crazy1))))))))))))))))))) I don't think you've done anything wrong at all. I understand those feelings though. I've been programmed to keep quiet, don't talk, don't tell. So often if I try to talk about things, inside my head freaks out a lot.

Just take it slow and try to do things that will calm the brain. I find that a teddy bear just sitting in my lap does wonders sometimes.

We're here and we do want to support you.