Today has been hit or miss. I had a mirror conversation with myself last night before bed, to try to see that not EVERYTHING is terrible in my life. It helped last night.

This morning I woke up and was pretty depressed about everything again. I had to go to the library to take things back (stuff that was just to distract myself), but I choose to pickup some books to help with my life. I really hope it will help. The one I'm most excited about is by Martin Seligman about optimism. I have very little optimism, even on good days, so I hope it helps. Hopelessness and very low self-esteem are probably the biggest issues for me. I'm not sure how to improve them, but the books should give me some guidance. I hope.