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Desoxyn · Jan 13, 2023, 05:17 PM

Sorry guys... That was a really bad time. I guess the Invega injection prevents me from abnormal thinking/decisions, cognitive impairment etc.. + The olanzepine.

I have a bit of BPD from relationships too. I didn't really react well to the lamotrigine (So I stopped taking it) - It's pretty okay to feel sad.. Just not too sad I guess.

But since I posted this, I haven't felt much "mental pain". I'm back on my regular meds now..

The only problem I have, is that I find it really hard to wake up in the morning (Which isn't much of a problem..).

Possible trigger:

I walked outside after arguing with my mom, rapidly switching focus (Like I've never experienced) - And I stood by the train tracks, putting clonazepam under my tongue until I could possibly jump in front of the train. She called me to come back home, and we drank wine, decided that I wouldn't go to the hospital (Cuz the Invega injection would eventually have been kicking in).. Idk what to think about that situation.. It happened, but Idk what to think about it. I just wanted to do something "nuts", Idk.

But that is out of my system.. Things are going okay now.. ^- My mental state has been good for over a week.