I was just reading through after-session notes I'd typed up after one of the last sessions with L in 2012 before she moved away. I had completely forgotten about this - apparently, she told me she loved me during that session, & that 2 people can't do the kind of depth work we'd done without feeling love for each other. I don't know how I could have forgotten about that. I'm feeling all warm and fuzzy about her again right now, which I'm sure the fact that I'm drinking a glass of wine while reading through this stuff is contributing to. What a weird relationship therapy is. It's like in some ways she became a part of me, still is and always will be. It's not enough though to make me feel comfortable with asking for a one-year-post-therapy follow-up session. There's a huge block in my mind/heart preventing me from doing so.

I wish the couch was a place in real life where we could all sit scattered around a room on beanbag chairs and such and talk and talk and talk. I'm so appreciative of everyone here.