I've read about codependency. Someone on here introduced me to the term.

Having a hard time being positive today. I always wanted to be married with a family. I get so much enjoyment out of being home. My most loved people are there!

I wanted someone that would just ... be... with me.

Let's watch a movie, a documentary, cook a meal, complain about work, cuddle, go on road trips, try new restaurants together, hold hands while we sleep, look out for each other, trust each other with money, work towards something together, tell each other how hot we are...

I never believed in a dad's role or a mom's role, just parented. I wiped butts, gave bottles, did sex talks, made meals... whatever. I never believed in a man's work or a woman's work, there was JUST work. Mowing, painting, welding, ironing, laundry, roofing, walking to the bus stop.

I don't like the idea of being unpartnered.

But, I'm thankful for; good kids, help with my house, help packing, the promise of a decent new home, that a friend and a couple of family stepped in and gave me money to get this behind me ASAP, leave with pay from my workplace, coworkers who took my client load for a month.

And I'm thankful for all of you.

I'm really lucky.

RDMercer