My Saturday was not good. I felt down for most of the day. Woke up freezing. It had been cold the night before. I forgot to use my tools and all felt hopeless. I didn't go to the grocery store which I usually do at Saturdays. I even started to think that life was not worth living, but it never turned into real suicidal thoughts.

I have too few friends here. I need to do my job better (am thinking about how to be more socially active). May be to set up goals for how to continue in the groups I already am a member in and how to join some new groups, step by step plans, will help.

Sorry for ranting, but I needed to put my thoughts down. Thank you for listening!