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Wow, you've really had a time of it. I'm so sorry you aren't being supported.

I think you're expressing yourself very well here. Do you journal as well? I find that when I journal, it really helps me get everything out. You might take the journal and share with T as well to get additional support in areas where you might need.

Have you considered stepping back some and taking time just for you? Perhaps you can find a support group or a group of people who are supportive to be your support during all this as it doesn't seem like you are going to get it from your family.

Please keep posting and welcome to PC. We're glad you're here!