He had sent a few lengthy texts too. I had unblocked him a week or so ago to discuss signing the divorce papers. He is trying to woo me back again. I am pretty astounded that he would want anything to do with me, after kicking him out of his home twice now. He is saying things like "you looked so beautiful" and "I was full of emotion after seeing you" and "I just wanted to hold you and give you love".

It does pull at my heart strings a tiny bit, I must admit. And a part of me wishes I could ask him to move back in, only to help me pay rent and bills. Obviously, I will NOT do that, because I don't love him and I don't want him anymore. A friend even asked if he could be my roommate. NO WAY. I am only sharing my deepest thoughts right now and they are there because I feel desperate. He is not allowed back in my life though. Never again. I will find other solutions - I will get a job if it's the last thing I do. I have to get determined.