Thanks, Lost. That's a good point about the professional relationship. Plus his knowing her as a colleague is different than as a client. And also, I figure "warmth" is relative to him!

And she was very nice. And accommodating of my initially saying I was good with 50 minutes, then asking for the extra 10 right at the end.

I think a lot of this was my anxiety being in that building again--the last time was seeing p-doc in 2019. And I tried to push through that anxiety instead of talking about it. Anytime that happens with Dr. T, like if there's something I want to talk about but am afraid to bring up, the session seems awkward until I just get it out. Once I brought the anxiety up at the end with her and explained why, I felt more at ease. But then we had to stop!

So I'm hoping that maybe I'd feel more at ease tomorrow. I'm wondering if part of this is my avoiding the building? And maybe I need to face that? (The funny thing it, it's literally across the street from Dr. T's office.)

And I also wonder if I wanted Dr. T or R (or maybe even ex-MC), and K isn't either of them. And maybe I was expecting her to react to things like one of them would, when she's a different person and a different T. I did make her laugh a few times at the end (humor is one of the ways I connect with people).

So I think it could be a good experience for me to go back and talk to her more. Especially as she has background that could be helpful regarding D.

I did hear back from Dr. T. It was a relatively short reply (though from his signature, he wrote it on his phone), and at first it felt rather detached, but now I can see more warmth in it. And I said a lot in the email, so maybe he was just responding to things other than what I was hoping he'd respond to, if that makes sense. Like the content rather than the emotion behind it. And of course he doesn't need to say "Yes, I still exist" because, duh, he's sending me an email. And I told him a short reply was fine, or if he wanted to send something longer and charge me for it, that was also fine. So...