Good, positive day yesterday.

Hard one today.

Having a hard time not pandering and begging her to come back.

She continues to mishandle things with the kids and the distance between her and them continues to increase.

She blames me for it, meanwhile the kids are saying things like, "I understand why you get so frustrated because she doesn't listen or apologize or anything."

Oldest said, "You were always the buffer to keep things smooth."

I still very much miss my wife, meaning I miss the person she used to be and the glimpses I get on occasion.

Hard day.