And now I sit and wait. There's clearly a lot of work to do around this, because I am in a really bad place right now. I should probably just give up and go to bed. I'm so angry because I had been hoping to have a good week, and now I'm sitting here on my own, hiding under my blanket, having gorged on food, unable to do anything (yes, I've tried) just waiting for you to probably not respond. Seriously, I could so be done with therapy. £80 I had to spend today, to walk away in a worse state than when I came. Am I just throwing good money after bad? I tried to write it all out, but I just ended up going round in circles and getting lost in a maze with it all. I don't understand any of it. The attachment stuff was so easy to understand in comparison, and you really knocked the wind out of me with what you said today. It made me question the very foundation of my existence and I can't deal with that. It made me feel like I couldn't trust myself, and if I can't trust myself, then what do I have left?

I cannot have you undermining me or the work that I have done in the past.