@Rosi700 - I never doubted your good will. You are a most courteous person. I'm very happy you've found something that's helpful to you.

I'm very aware of Dialectical Behavior Therapy and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I attended classes on those modalities. Some people really have very foolish "automatic thoughts," which they need to constantly rebut.

When I took the class in it, my peers in the partial program would describe their reflexive thought, like: "I'm just stupid." or "Nothing ever works out for me." "I bet nobody will like me." It's nice, if you've got low hanging fruit like that, just begging to be challenged. That's really not the nature of my problem.

A research study was done to test the hypothesis that depressive people tend to have an unrealistically dismal view of life and the world around them. The test actually revealed that a lot of depressed people are more realistic than a lot of non-depressed people. Being unrealistically optimistic is actually good for one's mental health . . . to an extent.