My session got cancelled today because P is feeling sick. He was out of town so we had a larger gap between sessions than normal. It feels like a lot happened in that gap. We met yesterday, so it feels like I should be okay, but I'm really feeling down about not meeting today. I've been struggling more with depression lately and it feels like it doesn't take much to knock me completely down. I'm feeling very intensely today that I have no one to confide in besides him. Loneliness and hopelessness are a really bad combo for me.