Hugs, Kit. I'm sorry it scares you too. I actually picked up my drum earlier with that same thought - but then sat it down again because I really was afraid I'd break it somehow. I made it a few years ago so it's really special to me, and it would just crush me if I ended up destroying it.

I do recall one time when my anger got super bad while I was in college many-many years ago, I went to a garage sale and bought a set of plates, went back to my apartment at the time, and then slammed them one at a time into the concrete driveway and watched them shatter.

Yeah, I have a problem.