Artie, I had/have exactly the same problems with anger and exactly the same problems with a T who seemed unable to help. (I'm yet to see if this new one is any better). If it's of any help, I once went deep into the woods and found an enormous branch lying on the ground. I picked it up and hit it repeatedly against the largest tree I could find. It felt like the only thing big enough and strong enough to withstand the enormity of my feelings. It helped. A lot. Just don't hurt yourself in the process.