And to comment on the other thread, I'm also really bad with anger. I rarely saw it from my parents growing up and was taught not to express it. I am much more likely to turn it inward than to even feel it toward other people, let alone express it. Or if I express it, I don't do so productively, like I let it build up.

I think it was great progress for me that, while dealing with all the "love" stuff regarding Dr. T, I did tell him a few sessions ago that I felt some anger toward him, too. Because he knew this was a sensitive topic for me (because of what happened with ex-MC) and must have realized that some stuff he said would potentially hurt me. And that I'd felt good and positive about everything, like I'd taken this risk, and it had been OK. And then his expressing some doubts on how to deal with it felt like he was taking some of that away from me.

Maybe it struck something in him, because he seemed much more compassionate and gentle in the session after that. I did feel better after saying it, too. And after other times I've expressed anger toward him. Still working on expressing it to others. But I think just being able to identify that I feel that way, that I'm upset with another person rather than just turning it inward and thinking it's something wrong with me, that's progress in a way, too.