Ah yes, I'm not very good at dealing with those underlying causes, am I? Perhaps I need to start looking at my marriage as the festering wound that it is and has been for a long time. I'm really good at slapping a band aid over it without treating the infection first. I need to do something, though, and soon about that underlying infection. I really don't want to just turn my life upside down by leaving. I'd rather try marriage counseling first but I haven't yet figured out how to get h to agree to that.

I'm still angry about a lot of things that happened in my so-called therapy too, that I never addressed. Those things, though, I should probably address by writing a letter and then burning it.