thanks scarlet. that's certainly true. well i slept for a few hours but now i'm wide awake and can't go back to sleep. gonna go back to bed and try to just be with all the feelings/emotions swirling around inside me. anger, worry, love, hate, etc. maybe do an Active Imagination and have a round-table meeting with all of them and see what each one of them wants to say. g'night again y'all.