I will go early to bed this day, but I will see the evening news first and then try to relax with a bit of Netflix.

I was up early and went through my usual morning routines. It was very cold outside, so I skipped my ordinary walk in the fresh air. Instead, I went to shop groceries. The food prices... May be the 2023 will be the year of oatmeal porriges? Who knows... Well, my grandparents survived the second world war, so I cannot give in. If they could, I can. I will make a budget soon. I need to find what I have to let go and what can stay of my ordinary living.

I don't feel depressed (I think), but I feel some kind of hopelessness and sadness. The winter is always difficult for me. To have these high food prices on top of everything doesn't make it easier. Every winter I struggle to come through.

Sometimes I have wondered if I should move to a place where the winters are milder. I feel too old to start anew. So I have to continue here and continue with my Cognitive Therapy program. It is good, but sometimes one has to let out frustrations because of the time we are living in, the war in Ukraine and everything ...

Tomorrow I will do housework at the time scheduled for walking outside. The cold weather will continue for the next days...

Sorry for ranting, but some days feel harder than others. I have fought for decades, and always something happens that almost take the breath out of me. For the time being it is the food prices.