EDHAN , you have wonderful posts, and lots of wisdom. I love reading them...
LostandLonely,
Think on things that are possible now, and not what isn't because it will waste your time and precious emotional life.
Save your special love and passion for someone who wants to be with you, and let it be fresh and renewed with wisdom of self-knowledge so you don't bring baggage and low self-esteem into a new relationship - one that could be the happiest, most wonderful experience of your life.
(of course, you have to bring it too ... but everyone has faith in you for that!)
peace and wonderful love coming into your life thoughts,
nightbird