I must agree, @MuddyBoots , IP can only do so much. You know as well as anyone else that you have to use your own healthy coping skills, ACT should see that. I know you know that doing any of those things you have urges to do aren’t going to help in the long term. It’s difficult to think in the long term however.

Maybe you can start some count-ups/downs for how long you’ve been free of certain things. I have one for self harm (300 days), nicotine (61days), and IP (252 days). Sometimes when I feel like self harming I look at that and think “oh, I really want to but look how long! Better not”.

Idk. We just want you to be safe out of IP. I’ve been in your position(minus the drug use) and I’ve been on the edge of state hospital or residential treatment against my will and it’s terrifying to think your life will be out of your control for however long the powers that be decide it should be. I hope your team can find a better way to help you instead of just throwing up their hands and saying “ IP I guess”.