God doesn't abandone us, ever. It is US who move away from Him or keep Him at arms length. Just believing that He's out there in the big somewhere doesn't get it, either. You need to get to know Him on a personal level, get to know who He really is and what His will is for your life.

Too many people have a misconceived perception of Him; what WE think He should be, what to US would be perfection.

God didn't create us for suffering but instead, to live a full, abundant life. However, being in this life will always bring sickness, pain and difficulties. Yet, none of them are beyond what God wills for you or beyond what we can handle if we know what His will is for us. But we need to know Him in order to have faith that He will help us through whatever obstacles we come up on.

I've learned the above the hard way. There was a time I was angry at God, too, but it didn't do me any good until I accepted His will for me.

God bless you in your search to get to know Him better.