I realize what's happening. I am watching more YouTube videos about the narc's hoovering. And he IS hoovering me.

I have to resist this maneuver. It's all about maintaining power and control over me and nothing more. His pride is hurt, & he wants me back only so he can have control over me again. It's NOT about love - it never was. He doesn't love me and never truly did. It's all about control over me.

I have to hammer this into my head. He uses words of love to hook me, but it's not real.