This food restriction is kinda bad. Its just everyone says you gain a ton of weight when you turn 30. Like it somehow automatically happens the second you turn 30 no matter what you do to prevent it or something. I know my mom always told me that happens. She said it a lot when I was heavy in my early 20's and giving me a hard time about my weight. So now I am freaking out about it. I've been drinking a lot of decaf coffee today. I promised my therapist I'd put milk or creamer in but I didn't. I also had a couple bottles of watermelon Hint water. I've been taking progress pictures which she said not to do. I just can't help it. This whole "30 and you get fat" thing is freaking me out. I have 2 weeks until I turn 30. I have chocolate I got during the summer I haven't eaten so I guess you'd say my self control around food is pretty good. So I mean I don't know how it just "happens"

Besides the weight gain anxiety I feel ok. I slept for about 10 hours and I got my nausea under control quickly and early with a zofran. I've stayed away from caffeine besides a bottle of Coke, so my overall anxiety is under control. I think its the Mountain Dew I drink that causes so much anxiety. My other symptoms are more at night when I'm lying down.

Also Alec Baldwin shouldn't be charged. I don't think it was his responsibilty to check if the gun was loaded. My aunt is saying hes being "railroaded."