I didn't sleep after 11 last night. I woke up hungry since I ate dinner at 4 and didn't eat much of anything in general yesterday. I just wanted a soda though so I drank a Mountain Dew. Then for some reason, probably just self sabotage, I drank a Coke and then a Coke with coffee. Then I battled with anxiety the rest of the night. I feel decent now after getting my weekly shot and eating some yogurts and overnight oats. I texted my mom saying I felt like I was going to die from my anxiety and then when I went to check the weather I got an ad for a free cremation planning guide. Which I found to be pretty funny. If I were back in my old state I'd probably be put IP because of this ED. But my current therapist and the last one arent as dramatic as my transference T. Also my current therapist has only ever seen me with a baggy hoodie on. So I'm not sure what she would say if I wore a T shirt and jeans.