I've actually improved a lot with her. Especially after I started with this new therapist. Who is very similar to the transference T minus the transference. Its just emails are touchy for me. I did end up sending one an hour ago explaining that things arent going all that great and I don't know if its hormonal or just situational or that turning 30 in general is just hard to wrap my head around.

But I think I've been better with the transference T thoughts

Yeah my birthday is in about 2 weeks.