a friend sugested i write out how im feeling, been feeling low last few days, not sure why, maybe its because oldest daughter moved on sat to her new home her new family , she told me the new her new start new stuff

so that set me off a bit also the social worker has worked with her dad to make sure she saw him still i got told a week before she moved and i recieved a letter asking me to sign form to hand over trustee to someone else i didnt expect to do it by letter

so up to yesterday i was just low carrying on as normal untill it was time to get up slept through alarm got up at 11.10am managed a couple bits of toast and then out the door to swimming group i started going

i know i was quiet im sure they noticed at one point i was having a conversation and i sort of blanked out the conversation for a few mins so i still cant tell you what was being said came bk at end of conversation

when i came home never had much time, it was time to get daughter from schoool then home again but wasnt home long andthe tears were flowing and i took myself of to bed slept for nearly two hours
today a bit better but still low but went out to see friends and her granchildren