I am glad I am not the only one!

I don't know what is going on with me. I felt like I was losing it today, everything made me want to cry but I held it back. My T told me that I can call her if I ever need to, yet, I never do. I feel like I would be bothering her.

Things were going well until this past year , then the past started brewing. I hate whats going on, I hate feeling like I won't be able to control everything, I had no problem doing it in the past.

I was always did what I put my mind to and did extremely well at it but feel like a failure in T.
I get your point Sky, I guess I also often wondered if maybe she wasn't the best T for me and maybe thats why I can't talk, but I have no idea since I never tested T's before, she is my first.

My goal is to be "normal" again, whatever that is. I want to be able to trust and be intimate. I could definately use better thought patterns in that area.
I guess I was hoping I could just get it all out and over with, and now here I am 5 months later feeling like I haven't even begun....its soooo frustrating.